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Happy Valentine’s, Beauty Queens 💋 This one still makes us laugh @Benefit Cosmetics Benetint on the areolas. You’re welcome. LOL But in all seriousness… this Valentine’s Day is also reminding me of self love and how far I’ve come since this clip was recorded. When this video was filmed in 2023, I was deep in chronic health issues. Constant inflammation. Constant discomfort. There’s a lot from that season of my life I haven’t shared publicly. And sometimes when I see videos of myself from that time, I feel this strange ache. Not because I looked “bad,” but because how I showed up didn’t always match how I felt inside. A quiet kind of dysmorphia. A disconnect between who I was becoming and who the camera caught. What’s funny is… I never wanted a public platform. I never chased visibility or “influencer life.” It found me. And I chose to step into it. But now I’m choosing to do it in my own way. More honest. More imperfect. More me. And still, when I look back, I catch myself in loops of judgment. Confronting versions of myself who were doing their best with what they had. Versions of me who hid in safety because being seen felt heavy. Because being seen felt unsafe. And I know there are many people out there that must feel the same. So this is me saying… I’m learning to hold those past versions of myself with more tenderness instead of critique. Compassion is the catalyst of healing. I’m growing closer and closer to loving myself more deeply, including when I was mad at my body for being ill. Mad at myself for the chronic judgement of it all. And if this all resonates with you too, this is your reminder: you’re allowed to evolve. You’re allowed to look back with compassion. You’re allowed to love yourself where you are, even if its less perfect than what you imagined, not just where you’re going. I know I've spoke about this before, but makeup saved me in so many ways. It gave me a mirror when I couldn’t find myself, to help me see myself. And it still does this every day. And this is why I love it so deeply, because this is how much it has helped me ❤️ So today, here is a reminder to love yourself deeply. Valentine’s Day for me isn’t just about romantic relationships, or loving a “final version” of yourself. It’s about staying in relationship with who you were, who you are, and who you’re still learning to be. ❤️❤️❤️ #makeup #benetint #lipstain #benefitcosmetics #thelipsticklesbians